Well, I am not sure how to write what I am feeling right now. Today has been a very tense day for me...actually it has been a tense few weeks. I have been working for a program that has MUCH different philosophies about how to uplift and encourage students to be all that they can be. I was told today that "I am not the one that can help them obtain their goal" that they would be bringing in two other directors and that I was welcome to work alongside them. The women that they are replacing me with are VERY talented and I have no doubt that they will create the colorguard that the band staff want...but I just don't feel like me working with them will work out. So I declined their invitation to remain at AF.
I have been working for a program that believes that you must win no matter what...and I just don't believe in that mentality. The past few weeks have been so awful and I have never had a job were I felt like I could lose my job if the colorguard was not clean enough. Really there is so much more to this whole thing...and I will spare you all the long story. I don't think that I have ever been so disappointed with my co-workers (well, maybe except for *****n) and their lack of Integrity or decency towards another human being. So as relieved as I am that my nightmare is FINALLY over, it didn't have to happen this way. In fact I can think of about a million other ways that this could have ended and the right thing could have been done. Needless to say that I have ZERO desire to ever teach colorguard again. You are not paid enough to have to put up with this kind of inhumane treatment. I will say this though, I will miss the girls...even the ones who made my job hard, and for the girls sake I hope that they have a great season...you girls deserve that, you are good kids, who work hard, and I just pray that the new directors will keep that in mind as they (the band staff) try to win that ever important trophy.
I KNOW that I am a good director...my confidence of that has not been shaken due to all of this. I simply wanted to help instill in young people, the same love and passion that I ONCE had for this sport. So the staff was right... this was a wrong fit......FOR ME. We both wanted two VERY different things and I hope that it was worth the price that they were willing to pay.
Here is the best news of all...when I told my children that I wasn't going to teach colorguard anymore they all squealed with delight! They are looking forward to having a full time mom again.... and so am I! :-)
******Name was removed because this individual thought that I was casting him/her in a bad light, to this person I say "the truth hurts doesn't it!"
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