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Sunday, August 24, 2008

Has the circus come to town???

I am sure that that is the question that our ward members ask after observing my family during sacrament meeting. Today I sat with my gritted teeth trying to remain calm while my son kept trying to use the bench as a balance beam, and my five-year-old refused to get off of the floor. My other two were busy having a pinching war.... I have NO idea what the speakers topics were or what the songs were that we sung. It was such a painful 70 minutes. After it was over, I noticed all of the ground up cereal that was all over the floor and the ripped up pieces of the program. We made a mess! HOW EMBARRASSING! The lady in front of us kept turning around and looking at us like "will you please control your children" I wanted to scream back at her "here you give it a go...good luck!"
And then for the icing on the cake I got to go to primary and do sharing time!!! Wow, how could life get any better? So I went from one awful experience to another...the primary room was on a sugar high, I am convinced! AAAUUGGHHH! Can someone just shoot me now?
Today I actually considered walking out in the middle of it all and NEVER coming back. Inactivity looks sweeter every week. I get ZERO spiritualness (is that even a word) out of going to church, sometimes like I feel like I don't even have enough spirituality to be qualified to teach such young impressionable little people.
Do you think that anyone would notice if I just stopped going??? Yeah, the rest of the primary presidency probably would. SIGH.................... aren't Sunday's supposed to be a day of rest? I AM NOT FEELING IT!

12 comments:

Beverly B. said...

I know how you feel on several different levels. I don't know you can have four kids because I can barely handle my two. I heard that this stage of our lives is more for setting an example by going to church and less about getting stuff out of church. You just need to come visit my ward for one Sunday and I promise you would feel a lot better about yours. I hope next Sunday is better for you.

Amberly said...

I hear ya sister!!! My Sundays are the hardest day of the week for me. Sacrament is horrible. Yesterday Sean and I took turns taking the monsters out. They were out more than in the chapel. It makes me so crazy when people give you that stupid all high and mighty look. I'm sure their kids never behaved in church like that. So hypocritical. Some days I don't want to battle the church chaos either. It is sooooo much easier to stay home. They would miss you if you didn't show up. Remember that this is our season and it will eventually come to an end.

Super Angie said...

Every single mom knows exactly what you went through--even the one who turned and gave you the bad looks. Next time that happens, Smile and say, "Looks like your hands are empty. What would Jesus do?" Okay...I dont' know if I could actually say that. But you could ask her to help you out...if she gets mad, then you know whos on the Lord's side and whos not...lol

You are fabulous in primary and there are kids that do listen, so don't give up.

At least you are a parent who notices that your kids were wild...I know some parents who turn deaf and blind and have no idea that their little angels aren't little angels.

Oh yeah...and one more thing..I'm sure you at least looked awesome at church yesterday! :)

Kirstin and Brett's Family said...
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Donna said...

I AM SO WITH YOU!!! I think every mom knows how you feel. I like Beverly's though that this phase in our lives is for example and not for learning. Because I sure don't get much out of it either. Its tough because I feel like I need to get something out of it more now than ever! : ) Oh well, this too shall pass. Endure to the end - right?

Bri and the Gregster said...

Guess who got called to be the nursery LEADER last sunday!!!??? that would be me! Don't they know that I'm really not the best one to be around kids! I told the bishoprick guy that asked me that me being in the nursery every week was a weekly reminder of why i'm NOT having kids!!!! Greg loves it, I come home exhausted and have to sleep it off for the rest of the day! And there's only 8-10 of them, I dont know how you do such a huge primary!!!!!! I'm sorry sunday was such a crummy experience! I feel for you lots!!!!

Tara said...

AHHH, you are a girl after my own heart. You just have to keep thinking, consistency, consistency, consistency!! That is why we are at sacrament meeting every week. I have to say, I sigh a big sigh of relief on the way home from church every week. I know it will get better. Come on down to AZ, we can have a contest on who has the rowdiest children, the Curtis Family Circus or the Meek Family Circus.
Love you!

RBS said...

Oh my darling daughter, I cannot tell you the number of times I came home all sweaty and crying after church but look at how my little ones turned out. They are all extraordinary and I believe it is because I persisted in doing what is right. The easy way is not always the best way and I am a little concerned that some of the responses don't help you see the importance of what you are about. You know what my response was to rowdy children. Who wouldn't fight to go out in the hallway if all you had to do was run and play. You are the one that will help to shape your children, it is a big job but you are up to the task.
Love your mom

Christine said...

You don't know me but I am one of your Mom's MANY cousins. For the past month or so I have been hooked on reading blogs. It is Heidi's fault. Anyway, this post and the comments really got me thinking and remembering some great examples and advice I have heard over the years. I decided not to write a book here but just say that I think your Mom is very smart.

4cutekids said...

ooooh Jenny. I'm going to take my video camera to church next week. Don't you worry, most of us are in the same sinking boat.
My daughter loves the pinch on her upper arm- She jumps like she's been electrocuted and I'm sure everyone knows what I've done but it's sooooo satisfying!

Heidi Ashworth said...

Okay, I confess, I am the Heidi to whom Christine referred. Of course, your mom is right. Just being in the habit of going, getting your kids in the habit of going, through thick and thin, that will be a tether to the church for your kids all their lives long. It does get better. And the lady who looked at you--is she childless or something? If not, then she must have a very short memory. Kids are kids. Period. This is a good one I always need to remind myself of--the church is not a country club for the perfected but a clinic for the sick.

Amy said...

Ok, so I'm a little late at making a comment, but seriously how funny. I do hear ya, and the funny thing is that Jake gets more impatient than I do. I actually get a kick out of watching Jake give me looks like, "um, are you going to control the kids!" I figure the best thing for us, sit in the very back then it's not as noticeable. Good times.

Hey thanks for the other day and I have a cute pic to give you, I will bring it by maybe tomorrow before we leave. Sure do love ya.